Wait you guys get tilted playing Deathmatch? No, I'm just surprised because it has never happened to me. Personally, I enjoy playing deathmatch because I could just sorta mentally zone out, and take a break from the intense round after round of having to actually think and strategize, keep 100% focused on something for 40 minutes at a time, and talk to strangers who may or may not be nice to me (they mostly are). Though I do come to Valorant for this sort of social experience and it is fun-up to a point, Valorant is still a pretty mentally-taxing game, and I find deathmatch in comparison to be much more superficial (strategy-wise), and inconsequential, as well as short and sweet, where everyone is just chilling and having a good time, an I actually find it to be pretty relaxing. Deathmatch makes me feel like an absolute BEAST, and I love the rush and gratification of getting so many kills in such a short amount of time without really trying to, something I rarely ever get to experience in my regular matches, since I get an average of 2-3 kills per game, so me getting 10+ kills in a deathmatch feels good, and makes me think I'm better than I actually am, and this makes me play different.
It's a bit of an ego thing, I have to admit, but I can't deny that I played one round of Deathmatch (just to make sure my game wouldn't crash again after that first game of the day) and it was on Icebox and I ended up getting 16 kills and in third place, and then in my very next (unrated) game, which was also on Icebox, I proceeded to absolutely pop off and get 7 KILLS(!!!) for the first time in my life! It felt very surreal, like I was watching someone else play, as I stared at the screen in disbelief as my muscle memory took over and I proceeded to kill 2 people in a row with my pistol without even dying. At that moment, I mentally was back in that game of deathmatch, where I had nothing to lose, so I acted without fear or hesitation, it felt like I was in a state of trance-before I quickly snapped out of it when I realized that this wasn't a deathmatch and this was "real", quickly reverting back to my previous habits. I did get a few more kills, but no risky double-kills after that.
That was very different from how I would usually play, since I am usually super cautious, even bordering on cowardice-I'm always last one in when we entry (if I entry at all, that is) and I try to avoid engagements as much as possible cuz I didn't want to die-much to my team's expense. I was sorta the anti-duelist, if you may, but deathmatch put me in a situation where I had to be a "duelist" and take fights, or die over and over and over again because there is nowhere left for me to run. Learning that I CAN fight, and that I CAN win against my opponents, in a low-pressure environment where nothing is really at stake, and no teammates can judge me, helped me become more confident in my skills when I take fights, even though I still really suck at the game, and it doesn't really matted cuz I'm just here to have fun. I don't play that much deathmatch, I don't even play that much Valorant, because if I did, it would get too repetitive and boring and tiring. So no, I have never gotten tilted playing deathmatch because I don't take it all that seriously, and video games are supposed to be fun.
(Mike, please don't come after me. I put paragraphs in my post like you told me to, so now it looks even longer. I think I had a worthwhile story to tell-that is why this post is so long. Please understand. I'm scared. 😖)
